The Magic of a Good Book



Molly: (face buried in a book) Scared a cat where everyone is sleeping. (turns page)

Hank: Mana (sister), it is time to go to sleep.

Molly: NO, mano (brother)! I reading! Dog on a boy where everyone is sleeping (turns page)

Hank: But mana (sister), I’m tired and it is very late and mama already read you that book…

Me: (entering the room with a drip of water for each of my children served fancily in stemmed Port wine glasses) Twice.

Molly: NO! I reading (turns page)!

Me: Oh, but did you know that if you put a book, a very special book that you love with all your heart under your pillow at night the story will become your dreams.

Hank: (sipping his water, eyebrows raised, suspect) Mom.

Me: (adopting an air of Mary Poppins) Magic is real as long as you believe it or make it so for others, mano (brother).

Hank: (shifting gears) Mama is right, mana (sister). It’s true! I do it allllllllll the time.

Me: Me, too!

Molly: (finishing her water) Me, too-too! Please?

Me: Well alright, but you have to go to sleep.

Molly: (excited) Okay! (hands me back her empty glass and tucks her favorite book under her pillow) Like this?

Me: Exactly, now close your eyes and turn the pages of your book in your imagination and the story will become your dreams!

Hank: (hands me back his empty glass) Good night, mama.

Me: Good night, buddy.

Molly: SHHHHhhhhhhh, I reading-dreaming!


Molly’s Christmas Wish

Molly's Letter for Pai Natal (Santa): For Christmas I would like candies and Chocolate and Halloween and Happiness.

Molly’s Letter for Pai Natal (Santa): For Christmas I would like candies and Chocolate and Halloween and Happiness.


Molly: (chirping in her bed, awake but not ready to get up)

Me: MaGoo?

Molly: Mama?

Me: Is it you?

Molly: It me, mama. It me!

Me: (turning on the light, walking over to turn off the space heater) Good morning, lovie.

Molly: (throwing an arm over her face to shield her eyes from the sudden light) Good morning.

Me: Well, you’ve done it again. You’re backwards and have no blankets!

Molly: It me!

Me: How do you do this?

Molly: I dreaming. I swimming.

Me: Oh, well, okay. That is a logical explanation, thank you.

Molly: (singing) You’re welcome!

Me: And how was your swimming dream? (walking over to open the curtains and the shades)

Molly: I swim with Chuva (which means rain and is the name of Molly’s favorite stuffed duck toy).

Me: I bet Chuva is a wonderful swimming partner, but tell me, do you get cold in the night?

Molly: (nodding)

Me: Well, my darling girl, when you and Chuva get cold in your swimming dreams you need to say to yourself, “Wake up! Wake up!” and when you wake up you need to reach out and find covers and blankets and pull them on top of you, because no matter how hard I tuck you in at night you always break free by the morning.

Molly: Okay.

Me: Can you show me how strong you are? Can you pull a blanket on top of you?

Molly: (with much grunting and effort pulls her comforter from the floor on top of herself) I did it!

Me: Well done! Bravo!

Molly: I strong, mama.

Me: You are. Now, MaGoo we have a job to do for Tia Adriana (Molly’s Nanny).

Molly: Okay.

Me: Do you know who Pai Natal is?

Molly: Santa.

Me: Very good and who is Santa?

Molly: He Christmas.

Me: Yes, he is magical and inspired the spirit of giving and some Christmas traditions and you know Pai Natal (Santa) doesn’t come to our house. Mama and mano (brother) told you all about that.

Molly: Yes.

Me: Because your mama, papa and mano (brother) want to make your Christmas magic, but this gives Pai Natal (Santa) more time at the homes of other Children who really need him.

Molly: Okay, yes.

Me: But Pai Natal (Santa) loves letters in his mailbox. He lives very far away where it is cold and there is lots of snow.

Molly: Cartões no correio (cards in the mail)!

Me: Exactly! And your Tia Adriana wants to send Pai Natal (Santa) some mail from you so he can hear what kind of magic you want papa, mano (brother) and I to make for you since he won’t be coming to our house.

Molly: Okay.

Me: So Amália Sofia, what would you like for Christmas?

Molly: Um… Ah… Ah… Candies and Chocolate and Halloween and Happy! (nodding)

Me: (beaming) What a magical Christmas wish!

Molly: (snuggling into her blankets, pulling them over her head, muffled) I wish. I Christmas wish!


Magic is real as long as you believe… AND I DON’T


(in a park, sitting on a bench with Hank while Molly frolics)

Molly: Mama! Mamamamama Chicken, Looooook! (pointing) Fairy-dragon-butterfly!!!

Me: (noticing the dragon fly resting on a leaf in the park stream) Magia (Magic)!

Molly: (screaming with the full force of her mighty being at the fairy-dragon-butterfly) MAGIA!

Hank: (giggling)

Me: (to Hank) She is going to love the fairy door this year. Think of all the wonderful things she will learn from Paige Portensia Xanthro Sprigh.

Hank: (shoulders sink)



Me: You’re thinking rather loudly.

Hank: Mama, who is Paige Portensia?

Me: The director of Far Flung Fairies, Inc. The celestial corporation that maintains and manages our Fairy Door.

Hank: Mama, who wrote the letters?

Me: Paige Portensia.

Hank: Mama.

Me: Magic is only real…

Hank: (annoyed, interrupting) I KNOW, I know! Magic is only real as long as you believe and I don’t.

Me: Oh.

Hank: You wrote the letters?

Me: Yes.

Hank: And you took the art and left the fairy money?

Me: Guilty. (pause) Are you mad?

Hank: A little. I am a little mad. I really, really believed.

Me: And now you have chosen to stop so the magic is gone and all you have left is your silly mother who loved making the magic for you.

Hank: (deep sigh)



Me: You know, your pai (dad) hated my fairy mischief.

Hank: Really?

Me: OH yah. He hated when I painted coins with nail polish late at night because the whole apartment smelled like varnish. He also is the reason Santa never came to our house. He felt so betrayed when he stopped believing in magic. He felt lied to. Do you feel lied to?

Hank: A little. Yes, I do.

Me: I am sorry.

Hank: And you hate lying.

Me: I do, but I don’t feel that creating Paige Portensia was lying. I feel I made magic for you and for me. It was magical the look on your face, the way your heart sang because you had a door in your house where magic seeped through. It is your choice to stop believing and I respect that.

Hank: But is wasn’t real.

Me: Yes, it was.

Hank: But you did it not fairies.

Me: That doesn’t mean that magic isn’t real.

Hank: (disdain) You really still believe in magic and fairies?

Me: I do. I really do. I am being entirely sincere, because magic is real as long as I believe in it and as long as I help make magic for other people. Magic is like art. There are two ways of looking at art: one is with wonder and the other is with indifference. Those full of wonder marvel at a work of art and it moves them as only the piece can move that special, individual soul and those who live indifferent to art look at it and think, “I could have made that. What’s so special about that? How could that fetch millions of dollars?” It’s the same with magic.

Hank: I am mad, a bit, but I am more sad since I loved it all so much. I am sad it is over.

Me: But why is it over?

Hank: What do you mean? I know none of it was real!

Me: Ah, yes. I did write letters and collect your beautiful drawings and teeth, but part of the glory of magic is making it for others. And look over there at that silly, romping, little sister. You can advise me to the contrary, but I have a sneaking suspicion that she is going to love our fairy door and all the magic that you and I can make for her. That we can make together… if you wish.

Molly: (poking the creek bottom with a rather long stick, enraptured with stirring up algae)





Hank: I think I don’t know how I feel.

Me: And that is perfectly okay.

Hank: I think I am going to want her to believe. I think I still want to believe and am mad I have to grow up!

Me: But why do you have to grow up?

Hank: MOOOOOM, seriously.

Me: Oh, but I am being serious. Dead serious. Growing up is a trap. If you are 95 years old and not looking for dragons hiding in castle corners I feel epically sorry for you.

Hank: Really mom?!

Me: Truly. You can be mature, serious, own a house and a car, have children, a career and pay all your bills every month, but if you have no magic in your life, no whimsy, no delight in nonsense and far too few belly laughs I pity you. With the depths of my soul I am the richest woman I know because I still believe and therefore I live a magical life.

Hank: (harrumph)

Me: Thank you for not being too angry with me, Hank, I couldn’t bare it. And besides (putting my arm around his shoulder) we had so much fun, didn’t we?

Hank: (cracking a smile)

Me: Could you imagine your childhood any other way? Without sleeping dragons and dragon stew? Without the fairy door and magical art show profits? Without wands and bedtime stories and mischief?

Hank: No.

Me: Then be mad as long as you want, but please think about aiding in the magic of your sister’s childhood. I am pretty positive if we both contribute we can create something amazing.



Molly: MANO (brother)! MANO (brother)!!!!

Hank: Já vai (coming). (getting up to walk away but turning back) I’ll think about it, mom.

Me: Thanks, buddy.